Once again... over and over again.
Today I had an anxiety attack... again. I do not know if it was part of my depression episode or... because this fucking month took me backwards. I was feeling like possessed. Sad and lonely most of the time and with a lot of thoughts about the past year. No one deserve to feel bad about themselves because of another one who didn't love them. And no one deserves to be the "collateral damage" of someone trying to figure it out life. That's my case but not anymore. The sign is clear. I asked God and the universe for help. I feel other wise a minutes ago. You know, have to love myself more... or just to love myself. I have to forgive.........me, the times that is going to be necessary. And forgive the others that caused me a lot of pain, and even the process and the situation. I have to accept finally that. That doesn't mean that I'm not going to recognize the pain, the hurting... the shattered state that comes along since I decided to get involved with that pe