Pattern

I ran away...

I noticed that, nowadays, when I like someone a lot, I shut myself down. 

I pushed away  those guys who could stand all my complex mood.

And, if I let them be with me for a while, I pushed them away or I simply dissapeared and shut them out of my life... in some cases, I looked for someone else, keeping myself into two bad medium term relationships, without any commitment.

I became the runaway girl, the misterious and annoying one, always keep people waiting.

I'm not the worst person in the planet.

 I have to stop this kind of suffer.

I'm willing to do that...

It would be hard, but, I cannot let fear take my life again and make me be 
"the girl with the cold stone heart".