what am i doing... there

i realized today, at 5am, that the people that i've been dragging and trying so hard to beeing aroung is crappy...
so much time i punished myself 'cause i thought that i was the bad one, bu not anymore.
it broke my heart so long ago, but now, stills hurt.
i cannot bear it...
hypocrisy makes me wanna puke.
Now, "i'm the poor little one"... i rather prefer that...
they are fake, and i don't wanna be around them anymore.

so what?
am i evil?

i'm sick of it.

*closing the chapter now*